The news of our pregnancy only came 3 days ago. Whilst sharing the information could be seen as being premature, our decision to have a baby came after only 2 months of being together. Lesbians eh!
We discussed that we are both at the point in our lives where we wanted children regardless of relationship status. Both sides of our family had split up when we were small children. Our view will remain that whilst babies can be conceived, not extensively, through one-night stands, years of trying and even unplanned within long-term relationships. We were both happily consenting to becoming accountable to a small oven baked bun with an open mind of what issues the future may hold.
After discovering our news, sentiments haven’t changed only intensified. I cannot speak for my SO, only attempt to capture in words my emotional realisation.
Overall, I feel absolutely liberated. Anxious of being there for my SO. I’m extremely excited for our future as a family. Worried for any complications that can come with pregnancy. Powerless regarding the difficult, painful emotional changes that are to occur with my SO Completely overwhelmed for what I need to know, learn, do and how I will act and respond to the demanding transitions that will occur.
To provide further factual understanding regarding dates:
We inseminated on the 17th, had a negative test on the 25th and 31st. We then had a positive test on the 5th -P-DAY. Meaning the bun could have been cooking for 15 to 19 days. Due dates and weeks pregnant however is calculated from the first date of your last period (7th)
Making the 5th our 2nd day in week 4 of the first trimester…
Difficulties:
Silence– At 12 weeks we are scheduled to have a dating scan- this is generally where others are informed of your incredible news. I have no idea how parents to be can keep their mouths shut. My first instinct was to hire a blimp and a huge sign to show anyone that would look! Consequently the idea to blog everything anonymously seemed like a preferred alternative.
Hormones– So not only do you have to zip your mouth and throw away the key in the hope that at the dating scan you will have a beautiful, healthy ‘bun’dle of joy cooking away, the hormones!…
The SO really is the woman of my dreams. Partly because of her excellent physical attributes, but mostly her powerful character, hilarious one-liners and her principled outlook. However, she carries a dash of impatience.
The hormonal effect that is had on her patience once introduced itself on a monthly basis. Now its daily, it sneaks up on you from behind… slaps you in the face… then completely disappears once you manage to find a shield to fend it off. Then… it’s as though the episode has been erased from the archives. Leaving you completely bewildered, uncertain of any step to take, thought to have or word to say.
Note to self.. For god sake do not stay silent, do not utter the word patience and do not laugh
Lesbian Gets to grips Blogging Through Pregnancy 